Sunday, August 23, 2009
must not forget:

this is all still just a compromise.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

a conversation.

tet: ang sakit ng ngipin ko!
paolo: bakit?
tet: tutubuan ata ako ng wisdom tooth eh.. natubuan ka na ng wisdom tooth?
paolo: ay, hindi pa..
tet: clearly.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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Saturday, August 15, 2009

EXTREME RANTAGE

you know what, all you need is a little conviction. have some spine, goddamnit. and have some gratitude. if you were to tell me you feel pressured from all the "shit" you're going through i might just laugh at your face.

everything anyone could ever want is at your disposal; friends, a complete and loving family, people who love you and care about you, material things... and yet you manage to complain about things that actually aren't enough to complain about. these things you're experiencing, they are not even relatively close to difficult. because technically, the solution is at your fingertips; you just dont want to take it because its not the easiest decision. give up the things you should give up and stop hurting yourself and other people!

do not test the people who try to reach out to you by giving them more and more of your issues for them to carry without any gratitude. if this person is someone who is sincerely concerned about you, more so do you not have the right to abuse them like that. do not expect that just because you say "i love you" to them they will (or should) go through the ends of the earth for you. you can't just throw them scraps of your affection and leave them hanging and unappreciated the rest of the time. they go out of their way to your rescue you out of their volition without any strings attached and you go and pull them into the imaginary emotional quagmire you made for yourself? how selfish.

maybe i'm being judgmental. but from what i see and read, you're being full of bullshit.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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Monday, August 3, 2009

when i die my heaven would be an ever changing polaroid/lomo-colored dreamlike city like those photos on tumblr. it would be red-hued one minute and green hued the next; kind of like when you play with the color adjustment on photoshop. it'll be of a cityscape, of empty roads and buildings and broken cars, and it will be stuck in a perpetual sunset, when the colors glow beautifully especially against silhouettes.. i can have a field of untrimmed yet unitchy grass where i can run barefoot through in a white dress and a crown of dandelions and i can have a cliff where i can jump into a lake i can drown over and over in. it will be somewhere i can walk around in forever and have an adventure everyday.

if my life were to be made into a movie (albeit a very boring movie -_-) i want it to be a hyperlink cinema film directed by wes anderson. because i totally dig his vintage-y indie style. because the colors are muted and the art direction simple and they evoke unspoken loneliness and innate quirkiness and confusion and dysfunctionality. because his films have awesome soundtracks and happy endings. because its from a world less known.

because my life is art and it must always remain so. ;)

i will find the answer in Peels.
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