Monday, January 17, 2011
sometimes i hate you.
sometimes i really do.
i will find the answer in Peels.
0 boo(s)
7:38 AM
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
my tear ducts are extra responsive to:
- extreme frustration
- real anger
- hypophrenia
i'm mostly a cheerful person, but my tear ducts do get an immediate response when i am met with these negative feelings. its not because i am simply too sensitive,
its because of the fight that instantly breaks out between that negative emotion and the urge to get over it as soon as possible.
i don't like to repress or sweep things under the rug. i always want to know what exactly makes me frustrated or sad or angry, so i can make my peace with it. between the time and i start crying and stop crying, i will have been wrestling with raw, inconsolable anger/frustration/inexplicable sadness and finding a way to reason with it or silence it altogether. this is why i should not be spoken to or "consoled" while i'm in tears in public - gestures of comfort only distract and confuse me, lengthening my crying time. the second i've constructed a complete flowchart in my head that explains why i got upset, it will be as if i've never been offended or affected. all this takes place in preferably under 10 minutes to prevent embarrassment or further inquiry from people.
there is the ultimate relief in knowing that there is a reasonable cause behind an extreme emotion. i'll never have to use lame excuses like irrationality. its the perfect way to prevent saying things that are out of line or counterproductive, as well as the cure to not being too caught up with an issue.
i will find the answer in Peels.
0 boo(s)
9:01 AM