Tuesday, May 18, 2010
paradoxes:- when the only person you want to talk to about the stuff you overthink about just tells you
not to overthink, it just makes you overthink some more. it fixes nothing, and the reason i want to talk about it in the first place is to help fix it!
- giving more of myself away feels like a blind investment that could end up in as much pain as the "self" i've given away. and its weird because i like giving myself away as much as i am scared of pain.
- i complain that i'm too attached and i need to stop, yet i get upset with going home early, insist on coordinating schedules, and find great difficulty doing activities that only involve me.
- uncertainty sucks. its like this secret i know i dont want to know about, but am still itching to know. but then there's no way to know unless i participate in the result.
- reasons/arguments/ideas that make sense only when i'm alone, and not when i actually bring it up. the things i thought up in my head disappear, and i only want to cry and/or scream. scenarios i thought up just end up as epic failures. haha
- the only person i want to talk to about these kinda things is also the person i cant talk to about these kinda things.
i will find the answer in Peels.
0 boo(s)
2:06 AM
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
GO ON, REVEL IN THE FACT THAT I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CHANCE OF SAFETY.
i will find the answer in Peels.
0 boo(s)
6:46 AM