Monday, November 29, 2010
it's as if i'm in the process of changing my identity; i have had and will have to change all my accounts - from my email, to my YM ID, phone number and even bank account.

all this work is so frustrating.

between schoolwork, org work, part time jobs and internship applications; i barely feel fulfilled, i just feel tired all the time. and it sucks that i know that. i dont wanna take a break because that's just putting off work and piling them even higher. when my mother took the family to a trip to Subic, the only thought i had was that i had lost a day that could have been for studying or work.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

finally pinpointed it.

it's not that we're so different.

it's that we're not equal.

i want to be supportive and be happy for all the good things that come to you, but frankly the more success you achieve the more unreachable you become to me. you're farther away, and it triggers my inferiority issues.

maybe its partly why i'm too clingy. when i dont see you, when i dont feel the certainty i feel when i'm with you, i am consumed by my insecurity.

and at night when the things i fear plague me the most, i wonder if my unreliable confidence could take it as far as my unwavering commitment would.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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Thursday, November 11, 2010

it seems that i have the tendency to keep biting off more than i can chew.

even when my jaws are already aching, my teeth grinding, and my tongue can't taste anymore.

sometimes i ask myself why i put myself through this.

i promise myself i would say no next time.

but here i am designing a poster as a favor, making somebody else's homework, helping edit yearbook pictures and writing for some research company.

it's the first week of school and there's technically very little academics to worry about as of now!

yet i feel as burned out as ever. :/

i will find the answer in Peels.
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Thursday, November 4, 2010

one of my pet peeves is getting sales-talked.

anyone trying to convince me, in general, always makes me uncomfortable, and i always end up investing for much more than what i intended. i especially find this troublesome when they are perky, speaks fast, or extremely emotional because i cannot find the right time to stop them. after listening to their whole spiel, nodding and vaguely agreeing to everything they say, i feel compelled to at least give what they're peddling a chance. and that's when i just know i will regret saying okay.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

what makes my evil self feel better?

knowing that my lollygag study habits produces better results than your serious-ass, hit-the-books style.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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