Friday, June 25, 2010
its surprising how one person can catch another person's hidden vulnerability in little things online.
its also surprising how there are really some behavioral patterns with people who go out of there way to "prove something to the world" even when its already unnecessary and almost lurking in attention-seeking territory.

but these people come with some sort of vibe as well, that i somehow pick up, and, even if i try to shrug it off and see them in a different light... they just keep exuding whiffs of "need to be better than everyone else" like bad BO. and sometimes no matter how impressive the things these people do, they always just come off to me as trying too hard to "prove something". the activities they're into just feel like the way they deal with some deep-seated insecurities they want to prove they can conquer.

these people have an intensity to them, not a natural kind of intensity, but like, an achieved intensity they are determined to maintain. they are (secretly) concerned with how people react to the things they do and say. they're also most likely to tell lots of other people. they like to add shock value to the things they do, so even when they arent the best fit for the activity, the effort and ability to succeed seems impressive in itself. a number maybe are emotional wrecks on the inside but you'll also probably see that in their blogs or something.

they like to think self-improvement via being active in an unnecessary number of things will make them a better person to other people, but i guess in reality, tyler durden is right: self-improvement is masturbation.

or maybe i'm just spewing out bullshit. maybe some of "these people" do have sincere, multiple interests at heart. but i just saw someone tweet something along the lines of "why didnt anyone respond to my previous tweet about something socially relatable?" wtf, man? it just seemed kinda desperate to me. and so i thought about how that kinda behavior is similar with other people i know whose attention-seeking intentions are more obvious......

i will find the answer in Peels.
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