Thursday, July 1, 2010
good lord.

i might have a "deep-seated need to be useful" (which i'll never reveal the roots of, btw) but that's only a small part of why i want/need to do things. i want/need to do things mainly because (going back to my previous entry)

I AM HAPPY-GO-LUCKY BY NATURE. NOW I'M SORRY I DIDNT BECOME AS CONFIDENT AS YOUR SCHOOL MADE YOU BUT IN MY HEAD I'VE COME TO REALIZE MY HAPPY-GO-LUCKYNESS WILL NOT GET ME ANYWHERE. THIS MAKES ME SCARED OF BEING INADEQUATE NEXT TO ALL THE PEOPLE I'M GOING IN THE SAME FIELD WITH. CREDENTIALS ARE MY ONLY HOPE. WITHOUT THOSE, IT'LL BE LIKE I'M PLAYING WITH A TUNA FISH WHILE EVERYONE ELSE HAS A RACKET DURING A TENNIS GAME. DO I EVEN LOOK FOR HUGE CREDENTIALS? NO. JUST ENOUGH TO SEEM LIKE I'M ACTUALLY INTO PARTICIPATING.

never mo yang na-gets! kaya wag ka nga mag-marunong!

AND don't you say that like i'm one of them.

I AM NOT!

i will find the answer in Peels.
0 boo(s)

0 I've been booed!

Boo me?