Monday, December 12, 2011
i need to learn to try harder.

but i really think i'm deadening the wrong emotions.

i meant for the expectations to stop coming. i meant to play by your rules, and to try and see things in your way.

but instead, i still want the things you can't give. and with every answer a disappointment, every compromise a letdown, i feel my affections waning because i'm tired of feeling my hopes get trampled and crumpled as if they're the most inconsequential things.

i dont even want to be excited with seeing you anymore. i dont even want to be excited with any possibility of spending time together. i know somewhere between that i will just want to go home and sigh and wonder where the stirrings in my heart went.

i never feel that you're around anymore. i havent felt that you're by my side for a while. i honestly feel more alone now when i'm with you than when i really was on my own.

i will find the answer in Peels.
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